Every day in every single way we are consciously or unconsciously changing our future. What we do now is going to affect our tomorrow and of course….what we don’t do...will still be….changing it… As you read this you may think, “Oh but so obvious” but hey...Pause and just  think…things that we do knowingly, is nothing but simply planning for what we want in our lives to be like…but…on the other hand things that we don’t plan and yet they happens everyday...things that we do not…have much control on. Be it…Loosing the most valuable Gift of your life(hint hint)…or something as silly as Missing our bus to work or even….misplacing our keys or worse come worse falling sick  just before your wedding…you might just curse your fortune at that very minute...and scream and say Why me…But think again it might just be one of your most luckiest moments……moment which will shape out what is about to come…in days…months or even years…

As for now…I guess no one can be all that perfect all the time…now can they…for me...the work has been more then kind…(which to confess I cant handle anymore, it is driving me insane) but however..what ever developments that i have been doing has been doing pretty well...commercially...but unfortunately...emotionally I have been total mess…but then I must also confess to having some amazing friends…who…even though are not close…but still have been keeping a close eye on me…and have been talking some sense in my head…to you... I say thanks for just being there…and definitely thanks for listening…every time…Undeniably…it has helped me clear up…some of the misconception that I have been harboring inside me…and guess what….not completely but for sure I feel a bit Better…although the pains inside of me is fading…and I have learnt that…Pain is inevitable…Pain comes to all…Pain arises from expectations…and that Pain is the only form of  self realisation to growing and moving on…Pain is also an indication something is not right…and I need to fix it…Pain has made me better person…I guess each one of us have felt it in some form or the other..…Pain only tells me I too am human and I am alive and kicking...for those who cant feel it….are only Cold...dead.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and change things…see how I could re-fix what went wrong…moments which...I wish I had not let go off…but then on a second thought I ask myself….would things be the way they are now…if I went back and had altered it…would today be any different….if I changed something then...then my present would no more be what it is now…would I be who I am and as I am…then I console myself…with the words…some one once said to me…Kissmat se Zaada aur Waqt se Phela kisiko Kuch nahi Milta... Hmmm…and then I tell myself Everything has its Time…Everyone has there Share…may be mine is yet to come…may be it came and I have overlooked it…may be it was meant to be overlooked and I will get a second chance…soon...yeah…messy ain’t it…but then I guess this is the only truth…that I know it is…and I also know I am getting there…Positive thoughts is all that I want for now…Hope…with which I have come so far…although shying away from me…for now and hiding from me in the miasma of my minds chaos…but Hope it is that we all live by…and Hope it is that will help us all come out of our slumber emotional mess..

I need to repeat this to myself…having experienced it...in my past…at many occasions…which has so far bettered  my life…I must recall that belief…everytime I fall...that everything that happens, happens for a very Good Reason, and the reason is never revealed to us at the time when it occurs…But in time to come…it is what that…happens now will surely change that will happen in the future….

So for now…I am going to wait and watch…and try to control my silly heart. I am going to Learn from each fall...from each experience...and move on.....towards another day...